iDallas!My cat’s been sort of nicer to me lately. I think she’s warming up a bit. She’s grown up in this crazy big place with lots of other cats around. It’s hard for a small, young cat to really get comfortable here. That’s too bad, you know?
I’ve decided I’m going to start reading more regularly again. I think it’s a good time in my life. I have tons of free time and all that.
la la la de da
waiting for the water to fall.
la da la de doo
I wonder just what it’s going to do.
I went to Radio Shack today to get a couple of miniplug to rca cables and maybe some miniplug cable extendors, too.
But the RadioShack I went to didn’t have much of anything useful. It just had a bunch of gold-plated, crappy sort of home theater cables. And all their home theater stuff is pretty much cheap crap, too. They have some ok, stuff, but geez. I just wanted a couple of basic cables, and they didn’t have it.
Sucky.
So, that’s the worst thing that happened to me today. What a lucky guy I am!
I am just getting over a rather vicious cold. I’m happy about that.
I also have revived my old Mac yet again. I think it’s going to stay with me for awhile this time.
I’m using the new Preview Release 3 of Netscape 6 to write this. It actually seems to work ok. Cross your fingers!
I am going to finally get license plates for my car I bought a year ago tomorrow. Whee!
Life is moving along. That it is.
I started a new track tonight.
If you haven’t heard my latest project, feel free to check it out and let me know what you think…
I also went grocery shopping today. Finally! That makes me feel so good for some reason. I really should do it more often.
Ok, and for reading all that, a quick poem.
Lots of love, I tell you now.
I have some left, still somehow.
I pour it out, left and right,
in between and around those fist-fights.
I am lover, it’s true indeed,
but I don’t take any shit, either!
I saw Dancer In The Dark, the new movie Bjork is in. It was quite amazing. I mustn’t say anymore!
It seems as if we are addicted to one another. We sometimes don’t want to have anything to do with everyone else, but then we realize we need to have people around us to really flourish. And flourish we must, if this world is ever to improve. And I realize using the word ‘improve’ is making a judgement call about how things are, and I’m happy with that. Yep. yep.
I’m in a good mood today. I’m gonna go with it.
Sometimes, it actually pains me to see so many fancy girls while I’m driving through some parts of LA. There’s so many people with plenty here, and so many people with needy elsewhere.
I do realize that these are different worlds, and you have to adopt some somewhat unique living patterns to get along in LA. It’s a strange sort of place. Love it, I do not. Hate it, I do not either. Like it… sometimes.
I just hope the people with the fancy cars around here do think about it once in awhile. Just some thought.
We can hope.
I am afraid to spend more time alone, I think. Being alone makes me notice how much I really am alone. I don’t know why it’s been weighing so heavy on me, lately, but, yep yep, hmmm.
Time is crawling by and the beats in the music are not helping much.
A blessing in disguise. That’s what I need. Maybe that’s why I’m going to have another masquerade ball. I need to get rolling on that.
There’s a pain in my head. It’s not really a physical pain, but just some sort of feeling I can quite feel. It’s keeping me from doing the things I feel I need to do, and that’s just adding to the so-called pain. I can’t sleep because I slept 12 hours last night, but I am too tired to do anything else, really. I have been dreaming about girls lately. Different girls. Girls I used to knew. Girls I would like to know. Girls I have never known and will never know. It all comes back to the same thing, I suppose.
And it’s all about a touch or a kiss. Something that seems so simple when you do it, but that somehow manages to stay with you forever. It’s too bad I can’t appreciate it for how special it is when it’s happening, you know?
Perfect. Nothing is.
Nothing will be. Nothing should be.
Trust, faith, whining memories. Draperies hiding the truth. Sadness welling up in my eyes. Crayons drawing nothing on butcher paper. Chopped up animals hanging on hooks and I can’t care.
Dying willows and barking dogs with nothing to eat.
There is more to this than that. There is more. There must be. I have a feeling about something absurd. Why do my feelings come out so erratically?
I would like to cry right now. It seems that might help. I will not feel this way in the morning. I cannot allow myself to sleep for so long tonight. I won’t. I need to be excited again. It happens, sometimes.
Drain. Drudge. Heavy.
Axe handle.
hear the hum.
Tropical is next weekend. We met people at the last Tropical.
It’s all about the house music vibes. Feel the vibe. Ahahaa…
more words.
more
more.
I have more.
pummel me with your favorites.
Why do girls like to do that ‘multiple boys at once’ thing. I guess they’re trying to maximize their chances, or something. Meanwhile, they also maximize their chances of hurting somebody… But, I guess boys traditionally do that all the time. I guess maybe I just came too late in the game.
I saw the newly re-released The Exorcist last night at the Mann’s Chinese Theater. That’s one seriously intense movie. I had never seen it before. If you haven’t seen it before, you should go. Don’t go by yourself, though.
trembling. I use that word a lot.
Why? Maybe because I write when I’m really hungry a lot. Yep. Nope. Maybe. I doubt it.
I like the word itself, I think. It shows a certain lack of power, but also a motivation to continue on anyway. If you just give up and lie down, you’ll usually mostly stop trembling… It’s only when you keep going against all odds (whee!) that you really start to tremble uncontrollably.
Things are going well. I had a nice outburst last weekend. It was really relaxing in the grand scheme of things. I let things get stacked up in my head for some reason. Booey.