Two open hearts
beating side by side.
A gentle surgeon watches with delight.
ba-dump ba-dump.
Two as one.
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Sunday:
I wrote a new bit of music today.
I hope you like it:
On my way home from the studio tonight, I started thinking about all the cars I was passing and the differences between the lives of the people in the cars passing and the cars being passed.
I don’t drive an especially fast car, but the years of living in Los Angeles have had an impact on my driving. I like to be going 80 mph whenever possible. And whenever I’m behind someone who is not going as fast as traffic will allow, I start cursing them in my head and wondering why in the hell they aren’t in a hurry.
Sometimes I like to humor myself and think I’m just driving more quickly so I can spend more time wherever it is I’m going. But I’ve realized that I also sometimes try to do non-car-related things quickly, too. I like to feel like I’m accomplishing lots of things every day and week.
I think maybe I feel like I won’t have time to do all the things I want to do if I don’t accomplish lots of things all the time…
But I started thinking in the car tonight that maybe I’m just rushing through life and not really living it as fully as I could be. I’m starting to worry that I might end up fifty and realize I haven’t really lived. Just accomplishing things and not living pretty much just makes you a robot.
I don’t think I’m really quite that bad, but it is something to think about when you’re driving down a familiar road as quickly as you can.
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Monday:
It does seem some days like the work never ends. And I suppose it doesn’t. It shouldn’t really. Once it feels like you don’t have anything to do, you’re probably wasting time. How you spend your time is your own choice, but you should at least choose something rather than just falling into whatever it is that comes along.
And on that note, I’m thinking about getting cable. There’s just not enough on television to make the TV I have worthwhile and buying lots of DVD’s as I have been doing is a drain on the finances!
If you have any thoughts on cable television, good or bad, let me know.
I’m most happy when I’m productive, or actually when I feel productive.
That goes along with the fact that feeling productive probably does make me more productive, so it’s this great circular thing. Sometimes, if I have a good week, I can ride the residual waves for several week after that. And likewise, a bad week can get me down for quite awhile. It’s hard to bounce back.
A big part of feeling productive for me is setting reasonable goals for myself and others. I have a bad habit of setting very high goals and then getting increasingly agitated when it appears those goals might not be met. Does that make me a workaholic?
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Wednesday:
I’m starting to develop some major gripes with the health insurance companies I’ve come into contact with.
They charge a lot for what they do for one thing, and we’re all practically forced into paying it. Well, in my case, my company pays for it, but that just means less money is left for me!
For another thing, the coverage is pretty weak. Friends of mine have had troubles getting what they need done paid for. If the insurance doesn’t cover what we need, what are we paying for??
On top of that, they just plain suck.
Mature, I know.
Socialized health care really does seem to be the logical choice.
Adopt a pattern of selfless delight and stick with it for as long as you can. If you are strong enough to do it for long enough, you’ll start to see other people around you doing it, too. They might not even realize it, but they’ll still be contributing energy to your cause and it will become easier over time to maintain your delightful stance.
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Monday:
Fa la la.
I’m tunneling my way through the ground beneath me. I’m hoping I might find my way through to the other side of the Earth, so I can prove all those flat-earthers wrong. Everyone needs a goal, right?
I’m very goal-oriented, but also feel constrained by too tight of a goal. A loose goal isn’t really much of a goal at all, though… It’s more of a hope or an ideal. Maybe I’m really just idealistic.
Traffic and driving get into my nervous system more than anything else, I think. Most of my strongest beatings have always been traffic-related or things I thought about while stuck in traffic.
I wonder what impact all this stress is having on my whole system. It can’t be good.
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Friday:
I have been so slow to update lately.
I’m sorry!
I’ve had a lot of thinking going on.
I also went snowboarding and stuff like that.
Yesterday I went to Internet World LA and saw all the big hype. It’s interesting and thought-provoking and tiring and annoying. As all conferences tend to be.
Now I am working on coming up with lots of brilliant ideas to make Newdream lots and lots of money without costing us very much. I will be extremely successful, of course, and the riches will come rolling in.